when the hospital was my home (feat. Rxseboy)

Feel the wind blow, I can hear it in my left ear
 Sounds like when you whispered to me, but you're not around here
 Life is slow, sleepin' 12 hours a day, ay
 Since I had my surgery, it's never been the same
 I'm sick and it sucks, and my friends barely visit
 Every week that goes by, end up feelin' more distant
 Cried so many times, tryna chip away my fear
 Prayin' when I'm sad, thinkin' of our younger years
 First night that you kissed me, cuddle watchin' Disney
 Now I wait at night for a text that you miss me
 Every second is a blessing when you're standing at my side
 We didn't see this coming, it's okay to say goodbye
 It's okay to say goodbye
 But I hate saying goodbyes
 Would you stay here longer?
 Sorry I'm not stronger
 Speak to me with honesty, it's harder than we thought it'd be
 Tell it to me straight, ayy, I don't want no probablys
 Tell me when you're tired 'cause I'm gettin' tired too
 The rain is feelin' heavy and the sky isn't so blue
 Pills for my breakfast, promisin' it'll heal me
 Hangin' out with doctors and starin' at the ceiling
 My favorite days are Mondays when you come and see me
 Wish you would stay longer, but I know it's not easy
 Yeah, I was excited for that concert
 Tell me all about it, did they sign your new Converse?
 I don't wanna let go when we hug
 One thing worse than dying is losing who you love
 It's okay to say goodbye
 But I hate saying goodbyes
 Would you stay here longer?
 Sorry I'm not stronger
 Noticed all the pain that you had to deal with
 Was sick of all the doctors lyin', sayin' that you'd heal quick
 It's been a couple days since you left us in that hearse
 Your girl just called me said she's pregnant and that would've been my first
 So shocked when she told me
 Why didn't she tell you?
 She thought you'd leave the world thinkin' your promises have fell through
 You always talked about how you were ready for a son
 Now you'll be watchin' over him, free of pain
 Hope that one day he'll look up and feel your love
 ♪
 When I get to heaven, I will wait for you
 Sorry for the things that I put you through
 You had to watch me flatline, wishin' that we had time