Scars on My Heart

Yeah, uh, I'm sick of loving, every time it's just a misconception
 I find a girl and she lead me into a new dimension
 Thinking 'bout the future, counting out all of our blessings
 And then I find out it's all fake, and she leaves me guessing
 I guess I learned my lesson, I guess we're better ended
 I wish I never gave my heart out, dummy, should've kept it
 Just like a piece of paper, she ripped my heart in half
 I guess this kind of thing is something I won't ever have
 But it's fine, soon I'll just get used to it
 To keep my mind off of love, I'll just do stupid shit
 I fell asleep, questioning is anyone for me
 Laying on my back, using music as a remedy
 Listening and writing all these sad songs
 Happy for a bit, but doesn't last long
 I'm tryna find the joy, in all this chaos
 Keep on praying, for my future hope it pays off
 Broke my heart, you tore it in two
 You tore it in two
 So why am I still thinking of you?
 Why am I still thinking of you, why?
 Yo, Lately it's fuck emotions, grab the dope and then I roll it
 I've been tripping off the potent, honestly I'm omnipotent
 Used to think about our memories, I cleared 'em like my history
 Wrote this in a grave to set the scene 'cause love is dead to me
 Our love was one sided, I know you ain't felt the same
 I bet you relish the fact that I fucking felt this pain
 You gave me comfort, you were like my shelter from the rain
 Gripping the razor blade, I swear I'd never love again
 I'll keep that promise, trust me I won't break it
 I'll rip my heart out of my chest and chain it in the basement
 Knocking bottles 'till I'm wasted, clear to see I'm changing
 Rather stick to blazing then the dreams that I've been chasing
 Broke my heart, You tore it in two
 So why am I still thinking of you?
 I don't even know no more
 I know hearts don't physically break, but my chest hurts
 I can still smell her perfume on my sweatshirt
 They say that time can heal, soon I'll feel better
 But all that can heal, this is if I never met her
 Story never ends if the story never starts
 Take these sad feelings, tryna turn them into art
 Paintbrush light stroke, out all of my feelings
 Spitting shit, typing quick, keep writin' lyrics
 Take the wheel I can't see, but keep steering
 Moving on kicking out my past demons
 And I'm not walking, I'll be running from this torture
 I see the light, do my best to move forward
 Broke my heart, you tore it in two
 So why am I still thinking of you?