i hate waking up (feat. Rxseboy, SadBoyProlific & Alek Olsen)

When the sun widens its eyes
 I no longer know what's going on in here
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 Ey-ey
 Waking up soon, but I wanna sleep
 Nothing is worse than leaving these sheets
 Barely awake, still brushing my teeth
 Running the tap, rinse, and repeat
 You were the lady and I was the tramp
 But showing you off, I felt like the champ
 I was your favourite, but fading away
 Leaving saliva all over my face
 Movies on Fridays no longer a thing
 Huh, I-I feel it sting
 What didn't I bring? 'Cause I brought a lot
 In case you come back I'll be saving your spot
 Try making a difference and showing you life
 Stuck at your side, you stuck in a knife
 Pouring you wine, you pouring my blood
 Wipe out my life, in need of a flood, yeah
 I need a flood, I need an end
 Scared of the truth, so I'll keep pretending
 Don't need a reason, I've been defeated
 Now I'm alone, I'll be looking for Jesus
 (I no longer know what's going on in here)
 Yeah, ever seen somebody die?
 Ever cut your wrists with the bluntest of knives?
 Hit your friends, started texting goodbyes?
 Ain't nothing left, but death in your eyes
 Sometimes people leavin', the lesson's acceptance
 The older you get, harder it is to get it
 Some people look for you, some look for an exit
 Might hurt you, might hate it, but never regret it
 I don't run from pain, it made me
 How could I ever hate what it shaped me?
 Been to hell, how could that devil faze me?
 Wish 'em well, even when they all hate me
 Let me be, take my soul and finally set it free
 Spread my ashes on the seven seas
 Let me rest in peace, when I'm dead, deceased
 Swear a grave's the only thing that's left for me
 I need a flood, I need an end
 Scared of the truth, so I'll keep pretending
 Don't need a reason, I've been defeated
 Now I'm alone, I'll be looking for Jesus
 (I no longer know what's going on in here)
 (I have nothing left)
 Ain't a discography, this an effigy
 I'm a giant, so when I am dying
 You had better make sure that I'm buried seven feet
 My reflection deference to the left of me
 Cracking under pressure don't let it get to me
 You can even break me down chemically
 Rapping pain, the only thing that my chemistry
 Contains, I think that this meant for me
 I think it's meant for me, maybe not meant to be
 I'm sick and tired of fighting with enemies
 Trying to cry, she lied about everything
 I wanna die, but that's a petty thing
 I got a lot more I could be giving
 Some people hate me, that's a given
 Wonder what I could've done to act like the sun
 And put some good use to my energy
 I think I'm done, done, done, done
 I wanna run, run, run, run
 Tried to get some, some, some, some
 And I fucked up my funds, funds, funds, funds
 I got like two years to be me
 And I got like three days in a week
 Now I got like four things that I need
 And I bought like five pills, I'm asleep
 Yeah, you know I'm tired as shit
 I thought I'd die as a kid
 I brought a knife into school
 And they told me, "It is what it is"
 Should've been locked in a prison
 Talk about shitty decisions
 I had to roam, no intentions
 Told me to work for my pension, huh
 Nowadays, I've been getting paid
 'Cause the music got me some attention, yeah