Beating My Head Against the Wall

hmmm
 hmmm
 i told so many lies
 it felt like the truth
 to cluttered to see
 i could never love you
 got a sick feeling in the pit of my heart
 the kind you can't ignore or it will pull you apart
 are we at the answer, are we back at the start?
 oh no
 hmmm
 now I'm beating my head against the wall
 oh it never came natural, i boast it all
 i tried to hard to fall in love
 i know
 i get it
 the good, bad, it's all blur to me
 from the beginning it all was plain to see
 i tried to hard to fall in love
 i know
 i get it
 oh
 oh
 i just couldn't let go
 you know how i get
 I'm stubborn as hell
 and i haven't changed yet
 there's something nagging me in the back of my mind
 it plays out like the same game time after time
 if you're up there don't give me a sign
 oh no
 now I'm beating my head against the wall
 oh it never came natural, i boast it all
 i tried to hard to fall in love
 i know
 i get it
 the good, bad, it's all blur to me
 from the beginning it all was plain to see
 i tried to hard to fall in love
 i know
 i get it
 maybe I'm trying to hard
 maybe I'm trying to hard
 maybe I'm trying to hard
 maybe I'm trying to hard
 oh