Fear And Love

When I looked back I had come farther than I thought
 I was all alone, and all of a sudden I feared
 When I looked at myself, I didn't know that I was exhausted
 I was all alone, and all of a sudden I feared
 You're doing well
 When you become confused, just like you've done so far, just go
 Just do yourself, you know yourself
 You practiced around a few thousand times
 Broke down once or twice, now it's nothing
 Opportunity has always meant (you know it) standing up again at life's crisis
 You said you're going on a trip to heaven, Quickly pack your suitcase
 Don't stop, you still have lots of work to do
 Look at the photo of your parents who look after you
 You're your dongsaeng's mirror as well as your family's star
 I musn't sleep so that they can sleep comfortably
 Hey you r*tard, don't be so obvious
 Stand strong, I know, even if you're lonely
 You need to endure this
 Are your tears falling, you b*stard
 Stop crying and raise it again, your responsibility
 Eh when I didn't want to see anything
 I forced my eyes open because I just feared
 It was because I suddenly became afraid eh oh
 When I didn't want to speak at all,
 I purposedly raised my voice because
 There is no other reason
 I fear, I fear
 I said it like a habit
 "I always trust myself"
 "There is no opponent"
 But enemy was in my mirror
 I must've lost my mind because of the continuous fight
 I killed myself
 My mom has become wary of me
 To receive the attention of the public eh, to live inside a CCTV eh
 I dug at one place to the point of death
 The fact that this might become my grave scare me
 Father, if you're looking at me
 Tell me the answer
 I'm much too young and fragile to be an adult
 I still don't know the way
 I know now that it hurts too much to keep hitting myself over something
 Maybe it's too late now
 To just keep stupidly whipping
 There are too many wounds that won't close
 Eh when I didn't want to see anything
 I forced my eyes open because I just feared
 It was because I suddenly became afraid eh oh
 When I didn't want to speak at all,
 I purposedly raised my voice because
 There is no other reason
 I fear, I fear
 I keep getting afraid
 I'm thankful for everything
 Ignoring my religion
 From the corrupted directors who tried to use this boy 6 years ago
 To my current agency that rescued me
 For the numerous contestants who allowed this stage
 For my uncle in heaven who taught me how men live
 For my family, my shoulders
 Even my members who are like brothers
 I'll receive consolation just until today and
 From tomorrow, I'll be mature instead of being a coward
 Love ya
 Eh when I didn't want to see anything
 I forced my eyes open because I just feared
 It was because I suddenly became afraid eh oh
 When I didn't want to speak at all,
 I purposedly raised my voice because
 There is no other reason
 I fear, I fear
 I keep getting afraid