HowDoILook

It took a while but I don't mind
 How does my body look in this light?
 It took a while but I don't mind
 How do I look now, how do I look now?
 I've stopped my thoughts,
 It's the only way of keeping sensations from creeping up on me
 And crushing whatever's keeping me going
 I just can't let my mind wander
 It always takes a dodgy street and I get nervous
 And just retreat
 But this is slowly killing me
 This is slowly destroying me
 This is slowly decaying me
 But I am home now I can let myself fall
 It took a while but I don't mind
 How does my body look in this light?
 It took a while but I don't mind
 How do I look now, how do I look now?
 Maybe I'd expected more or it was just my lack of vision
 But after years this 4 just wasn't as I had imagined
 And your head is on my pen, is on my bed
 It's hard to right your wrongs but you won't admit your flaws
 And oh god they're beautiful
 But this is slowly killing me
 This is slowly destroying me
 This is slowly decaying me
 But I am home now I can let myself fall
 It took a while but I don't mind
 How does my body look in this light?
 It took a while but I don't mind
 How do I look now, how do I look now?
 It took a while but I don't mind
 How does my body look in this light?
 It took a while but I don't mind
 How do I look now, how do I look now?
 It took a while but I don't mind
 It took a while
 It took a while but I don't mind
 It took a while
 It took a while
 It took a while
 It took a while
 It took a while
 It took a while
 It took a while
 It took a while
 It took a while but I don't mind
 How does my body look in this light?
 It took a while but I don't mind
 How do I look now, how do I look now?