one am

Yeah, okay
 I back peddle in this shit that I know I cannot handle
 You ask how I'm feeling, I'm feeling dismantled
 She asking me what's wrong, I went and told her that it's handled
 Hiding for so long that my emotions have been cancelled
 I'm reaping what I sow, I swear I'm just a fucking idiot
 Pity anyone who even cares to fucking give a shit
 Back to all my life when I go through a crucial period
 Don't know if I'll make it 'cause this shit's getting too serious
 I know you look up to me, you can't see my eyes though
 I can't bear to see myself, so I just keep my eyes closed
 I'm loving my life when I be running from the Five-0
 Poppin' all those pills until I'm in a different timezone
 She say that she want me, so she text me on my iPhone
 Asking what I'm smoking on, I'm smoking on these rhinestones
 Been so angry lately that somebody's gonna die
 If it ain't somebody else's life, I swear it's gon' be mine
 I swear it's gon' be mine
 Why can't I stop the crying?
 Everybody always lying
 What do you want from me? I'm trying
 I swear it's gon' be mine
 Why can't I stop the crying?
 Everybody always lying
 What do you want from me? I'm trying
 I swear it's gon' be mine
 Why can't I stop the crying?
 Everybody always lying
 What do you want from me? I'm trying
 I swear it's gon' be mine
 Why can't I stop the crying?
 Everybody always lying
 What do you want from me? I'm trying