Sleepdrone/Superposition

I ain't waiting for nothing
 I just show up to shine
 That or don't show at all
 Sit at home and unwind
 They continue they fronting
 They keep ignoring the signs
 Ain't shit out there I'm hunting
 Everything in its time
 An it's right now
 That bright black
 With a sharp tongue
 And the beats crack
 And he bites back
 With shark teeth
 And he eats that
 That black blocker
 That can't stop when the coppers creep
 And I don't show up I'm trash talk
 I'm fuck peace
 I'm Chris Dorner I'm Doberman dirty off leash
 I'm Mike Brown I'm Eric Garner I can't breath
 We face down
 Our teeth are touching the concrete
 They curb stomping us
 Wearing a crown in our streets
 It makes the
 Bullshit trivial
 Gave a lot of trust and some years to
 Some miserable-
 Castles made of sand
 Heavy hand holding shovels
 And trouble man
 Counts his real friends on his stump
 I used to spend a lotta thought on loss
 I used to need for every feeling amplified too
 You prolly learned early it's better to be hated
 And I hate whoever taught you that I'm happy to have learned from you
 Same page different book (weird)
 Hard feelings
 Soft hearts overlooked
 (But)
 Not here
 Your whole veneer 20/20 clear
 Keep my warnings out your people's ear let em try to steer
 For themselves
 Water and bridges
 Hurricanes and tryna rebuild visions
 Pick a pain I'm sure that I got limits
 But fuck it
 I'll make incisions
 Till I'm dead and re-risen as energy
 Tryna exist in superposition
 Tryna exist in superposition
 Tryna exist in superposition
 Clock tickin
 Keep livin
 Man listen
 Come on
 Show up to shine
 Show me a sign
 Show up to shine
 Show me a sign
 Show up to shine
 Show me a sign
 Show up to shine
 Show me a sign
 I tried to write a note to everyone who came out and supported when my kidney couldn't clean up my poisonous blood
 But I just stared at the page
 And when I wrote it I felt nothing but the numbing of cliche and tasted nothing but batteries and iron all over my tongue
 Words rusted in place
 And all I want is to chisel my initials into something permanent now
 And raise up these damn kids and make my momma so fucking proud
 And mutilate a couple crowds
 (Dead)
 And all I want is to make art
 Keep takes
 Break what they say it is
 Fakes run the game
 And your boy ain't playing it
 Nah there ain't no sense in this haze
 If it's up to me
 I'll keep the questions in my frequency and throw em often
 From now until a coffin calls em
 And spit where ever cops be walking
 You're suppose to be happy to be alive
 You're suppose to be lucky to be alive
 You're suppose to be
 If it's up to me
 The only people in the streets with guns lead communities or hunt for food they need to fight threw
 Maybe peacefully
 But that's a big maybe
 There's More than one way to skin schrodingers cat
 Not sure what's holding you back
 Theres nothing seriously stoping us
 Getting blown off the map
 Yeah
 Tryna exist in
 Predict coming events
 Visions make me dense
 So fuck your two cents
 Still a shoulder rub gent
 Colder with resent
 Fold for what it's meant
 It's over my man
 Go eat a xan
 You gotta prove your position
 You got a new superstition
 I coulda never sold dope and hustled through your position
 Gimme all black weddings and an all white funeral
 Ball like pendulums
 I write numerals
 Numbers on the boards of life and all mics shootable
 Even on your frozen nights when all thighs useable
 (future addiction)
 I'm not an MC
 What's up candy rappers
 White talkin keys no houses but with backwards
 All these new OGs they got us moving backwards
 Whole race at our knees
 History in the crapper
 I want the food to taste like poison
 Till poison tastes like food
 I want your home to feel like prison
 Till you up and hit the road
 I want your job to feel like torture
 Till you burn the building down
 I want to raise a fucking family out the ashes of this town
 I miss a quark
 And my dark parts wish I didn't
 She called me buster and gutted me at the finish
 And then it ended-
 Only clean break ever and I love her more now prolly cuz of that
 In the black
 I miss a writer
 Who never quite took my edits
 I built a pedestal taller than she could let it
 And I love her more now cuz of that
 Infinite slack
 I tied my own rope she took it back
 Instead
 In the red -
 Balancing books and
 Pre cum promises
 (When)
 Love is mean enough to go where it's not wanted and
 Fuck up a good simple an sweet
 Bliss
 Repeat
 Campsite rules
 Hope it's better when you leave
 I miss myself without the calluses
 Only hate two and call em dad so the irony could can cut through
 I won't be at either funeral
 I don't need to see I disrespect them gleefully and eat the pain, rage and guilt
 I keep it deep in me
 Release my fist
 When my ashes hit the pacific and I'm infinitely swimming in the ether
 Where the teachers be-
 Waves
 Thumbs up
 Sunglasses emoji
 Peace
 Tryna exist in superposition
 Tryna exist in superposition
 Tryna exist in superposition
 Clocks ticking
 Keep living
 Man listen
 Come on
 Am I trapped inside my body like it's a burning building
 Show up to shine
 Show me a sign
 Or am I the match that lit myself on fire
 Show up to shine
 Show me a sign
 (Like a snowflake in an avalanche)
 I been waiting for nothing
 This pain is nothing
 I be clutching my stomach
 But this, this here is nothing
 Scheming on what I wanted
 This pain is nothing
 This pain is pumping through my veins it's nothing
 Nothing is what I'll take
 Everything in its time
 Nothing is what I'll ask for
 Everything I will make
 Ready the fucking drums
 Get ready to feel it shake
 It's better than being numb
 And better owning mistakes
 Jehu
 Yank crime on ten
 Scream super unison
 Superposition livin an
 Dream like a hooligan
 Live like (them)
 Dreams might be
 Like a real life
 See them react
 Try to
 Act how it feels right
 An go
 Tryna exist in superposition (go)
 Tryna exist in superposition (go)
 Tryna exist in superposition (go)
 Clocks ticking
 Keep living
 Man listen
 Come on
 Show up to shine
 Show me a sign
 Show up to shine
 Show me a sign
 Show up to shine
 Show me a sign
 Show up to shine
 Show me a sign