Infliction

My life's scars run so deep
 Deep as in before birth
 Some things just won't ever change
 Feed myself some more pain
 Bad memories of childhood
 Corrupting innocence
 Not teaching me, misleading me
 Leaving me on my own
 Why questioning? No answering
 This shit's just so fucked up
 Ignoring my own personal
 Self characteristics
 Why no one was there to look after me
 Torn in between myself
 Lost everything taken away from me
 Words they can't hear, deaf to hear
 Born out of somebody's audacity
 Not given a fair chance
 Lies spoken in words that I do not know
 Pain teaching me suffering
 I can't ignore my feelings
 My own hostility
 Wearing my hate on my face
 Look into my eyes
 How in the world could you take care of me?
 You could not care for you
 I'm left with these horrible memories
 Time easing me, freeing me
 Rise out of my conscious suppression
 And ask what the fuck? What for?
 Truth wakes in me from my experience
 Laugh wondering what it means
 Do not create so blindly
 Better your offerings
 Lives are at stake
 Don't deny us the future
 Powers beyond in our hands
 Ask yourself what it means
 Never forget to look deep
 Finding thyself
 Laws I was reborn with
 God-like in character
 Choice to create
 I will not make that choice
 Severing of my blood
 Extinction of my flesh
 By my own hand
 I can't deceive myself
 Childhood wars, I suffered through them, my institution
 Some pain will last like time unchanged
 Cannot forget, lost in illusion, trapped in confusion
 Stress overwhelms my peace of mind
 I was born from demons
 From souls so far from peace
 Ask where they came from
 Woke with them, spoke with them
 They too came from demons
 Where can we all find peace?
 Life should mean so much more
 Peace will come when we sleep
 To live is to suffer tragically
 My life is complete hell, infliction
 I know I am not alone, suffering
 We all have our own shit, infliction
 Grasping of all meaning inside myself
 What we must all endure
 Constant awakening of what my spirit brings
 Breathe from my strength, child of ignorance
 Living in infliction, multiplied misery
 Just part of birth, this is the consequence
 What do I ask myself? This shit's just got to change
 Some pain will last, living in infliction