Tears Tumble

Pacing in my room walking back and forth
 As I'm gazing at the moon during night with bright
 Constellations as they loom through the haze
 Isolated I consume medication to alleviate my wounds
 But I'm only getting worse frozen like photographs
 Ain't a drug in the world that can restore my broken path
 Flags that have masks visions of my mother shedding tears
 As my casket gets lowered in to the grass
 Heavy hearted cause close friends departed
 Saw their lives abruptly end before they even barely started
 Choking on the truth, in my attempt to swallow
 Tried to drink away the pain feeling hollow when I'm done
 I've become the empty bottle, men don't cry
 And I tried to hold in, but my walls are closing in
 As the clouds turn gray above the mountain peaks
 The rain falls, teardrops tumble down my cheek
 I just can't stop these tears from falling from my eyes
 It's like the rigid wall keep protectin' my mind with me
 Tears tumble
 I can't fake it and I hate it
 Tears tumble
 I'm praying, I'm gone make it
 Ayo, It's really like a maze dog
 If you get stuck in a phase and wanna take all
 A piece of reality had to break off
 Leaving my box and cut the chains off
 See man I drop all of this pain dog
 Heart's mechanical, I rev up the chain saw
 Life's a risk I give and take all
 Corner of the pocket gets struck by the 8 ball
 And I'm talking bills not Billiard
 I tried to sit still quiet tried to think to God
 But my mind is like a riot in a prison yard
 Three-floor complex with the prison guard
 3, 4, 5 sets pushing off the floor
 People tell me the end is the light
 It's dim but I might get in cause I'm bright
 I live through the fight, and work through the pain
 Build with the struggle til it turns into knowledge in my brain
 I just can't stop these tears from falling from my eyes
 It's like the rigid wall keep protectin' my mind With me
 Tears tumble
 I can't fake it and I hate it
 Tears tumble
 I'm praying, I'm gone make it
 Through the pain I've endured, feelings dazed and detoured
 I tried to remain grounded getting faded off??
 Mind clouded wishin' I could fly away like a bird
 I can't sleep I'm the black sheep who's straight from the herd
 Disturbed nightmares feelin' cold I break sweat
 Soakin' walking tight rope without a safety net
 I'm copin' with regrets hands covered in dirt
 Wishin' I could mend the hearts of loved ones that I hurt
 But I ain't asking for forgiveness just pray that you understand
 I'm basically just a man, one day I'll be that person you're able to trust again
 Cause lord knows how lonely my world's become since the day that your doors closed
 Dear???, I can't even express how much I miss ya wishin I was up there wit ya
 Man I start choking up every time I hug your sister
 So I shed a tear for you as I provide a little liquor
 I just can't stop these tears from falling from my eyes
 It's like the rigid wall keep protectin' my mind With me
 Tears tumble
 I can't fake it and I hate it
 Tears tumble
 I'm praying, I'm gone make it