Bus Back

I'm on the bus back, take a hard look at myself
 Do I love this any more or did I do this for wealth?
 I watch the tape back and see someone else
 If that's me then why's it feel like a shell?
 I say this here and they gon' say it sound old
 But I feel like I've changed, I gotta do what I know
 It's not for you, this for me to get a grip
 'Cause there's somethin' in my ear that keep on tellin' me to quit
 My whole life, my feelings always like this
 Never say it out loud 'cause that make you a bitch
 Plus, it ain't about you when someone's sick
 And your time together might be gone, buddy, if you flinch
 I'm head down, a hundred twenty in the bump
 Numbers goin' up, line around the block, knew what's up
 They talk about the talent, they don't give a fuck
 I get home and realize all that shit, it ain't enough
 They want more and I gotta open up
 But for me, that shit's kinda tough
 I might be in my head for a minute
 But I be back before the track finish
 Don't worry, I'm good.