Comforting Lie

I started out on the wrong foot
 Now I'm not myself
 I am Jekyll, I am Hyde
 Found this place to hide
 Come seek me
 Oh, so up and down
 So back and forth
 So insecure
 Can't get this taste out of my mouth
 Swallow it down
 Pretend
 Hold it, hold it all in
 Let it build up
 Build a bomb
 Blow it, blow it away
 Clear it all out
 Just end it
 I'm just a normal person
 Without those problems
 When did it change?
 Admissions so embarrassing
 I'm on the verge of tears again
 Hold it, hold it all in
 Let it build up
 Build a bomb
 And blow it, blow it away
 Clear it all out
 Just end it
 Oh, look, I took the Band-Aid off
 Did I take it off too soon?
 Hysterical confession
 My big courageous move
 Don't gasp at the predictable
 A comforting lie can't last
 Preordained checklist of this awkward love
 It's so sad
 Hold it, hold it all in
 Let it build up
 Oh, build a bomb
 Blow it, blow it away
 Clear it all out
 Just end it
 Sort it, sort it out
 I'll just give it back
 No, thank you
 Toss it, toss it away
 Eliminate
 Just give up
 I can't decide
 This thug of war
 I'm feeling weak, yeah