Viola’s Soliloquy

What the—?
 But I never gave her a ring
 So then
 Why's she giving me a ring?
 Oh shit!
 What could Olivia see in me?
 In Cesario?
 Does Cesario have something I didn't have before?
 And what do I see in Orsino?
 He's selfish, depressed
 And clearly obsessed with Olivia!
 But he's so damn dreamy
 And passionate, too
 My brother is the one who always gets the girl
 And I'm the girl who's never had the chance to get the guy
 Now that I'm wearing the pants
 I'm in love with a guy, and the girl loves me
 When they look, who do they see?
 Oh, disguise, you are the devil's blessing
 You've cast me in this strange new role
 Is this costume getting me wrong
 Or letting loose what's been in me all along?
 Do these clothes conceal or reveal my soul?
 Oh, disguise, which of us is in control?
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 My brother is the one who everybody eyes
 I never understood it, 'cause he barely tries
 But now that I've walked miles in his shoes
 I finally see why he never seems to lose!
 I feel so seen as a guy
 People move aside when I walk by
 I felt so veiled as a girl
 Invisible to the world
 It was always "look, don't touch"
 No it didn't suit me much
 Why has this power in me
 Never been given a chance?
 Is it as simple as putting on a pair of pants?
 Oh, disguise, you are the devil's blessing
 You've cast me in this wild new role
 Does this freshly fearless skin
 Fit me better than the one I've been in?
 Am I finally shedding a well-worn shawl
 Am I more myself
 Now that I am not myself at all?
 If I'm a girl again
 Would he care what I have to say anymore?
 Or would I just be a prize for him to win?
 Would I even be a woman he'd adore?
 Would I be enough in my own skin?
 Or was the old me only a costume, too?
 Who am I, besides how I look to you?
 Who am I, besides how I look to you?
 Who am I?
 Oh, disguise, you are the devil's blessing
 You've left me undressed
 And second-guessing how
 I've seen myself from both sides now
 Is it half of each bringing love my way?
 Oh, disguise
 Maybe just one more day