Drinking Again

Letters overseas making sure the fam's good
 Ration MREs wishing for some canned goods
 Mom sent me a post card, and damn look
 My daughters hands so large, and she can stand, I'm shook
 I never planned missing these opportunities
 My ex-wife got to know the whole community
 She probably found a new man
 Maybe topping than three
 There I'm stressing again
 I pop two of these
 Alcohol would hold me over in the brick
 But my Sergeant say
 That she ain't worth a diamond or a cent
 But I wonder if he value himself
 From where he's been
 Cause he hasn't seen his kids
 In some years
 I don't depend on her tears
 To keep her confident
 I sent home all of my medals
 Thinking maybe I could save it with accomplishments
 But when I'm thinking at post
 It don't accomplish shit
 Just imagining everything that I've missed
 Its's that shit that got me drinking again
 And again, and again and again and again
 Its's that shit that got me drinking again
 Always complicating every situation
 Memories displaced, I've been impatient
 That's the shit that got me caught in the end.the end the end
 We are born with depression
 Let that set in like a hollow tip
 Feelings over-pressed
 Like lips full of collagen
 No matter who she swallowing
 I picture bigger issues
 Like PG-7-AT Chinese missiles
 Ain't no time for brittle emotions
 When posted overseas
 But when the push is over
 And you're home is when sow it's seed
 Caught a C-17 over to Germany
 Transferred back to Cali
 Caught a taxi to the valley
 Tried to catch her at her parents
 They greet me with disgust
 Mistrust and its apparent
 Seen the belly of the lady that a cherish
 So embarrassed
 I been gone for two years
 Left right after the marriage
 I walked out that second to take a breath
 And comprehend
 I should have walked away for good, right
 Common sense
 Then I wonder if a value myself
 Looking back at where I've been
 What I valued was hell
 Its's that shit that got me drinking again
 And again, and again and again and again
 Its's that shit that got me drinking again
 Always complicating every situation
 Memories displaced, I've been impatient
 That's the shit that got me caught in the end... the end the end
 I'm all alone, stoned in Tiajuana
 Hit the Coco Bongo
 In attempt to circumvent my trauma
 All I wanna do is talk
 But you don't understand
 A damn word that I'm saying
 Back off
 Another shot please
 Mi necessito whisky
 Bartender get this chick away
 Before I fucking flip
 Truth is I don't know what truth is
 So Lord please forgive me
 I've been lying to myself
 They say that honesty will set you free
 But I honestly feel I'm conquored
 I ponder my next step
 Like liquor make me stronger
 Maybe death is a choice
 Chosen by the voiceless
 I never heard a void come out of that noise
 I used to claim I avoided all the estranged games
 To battle myself
 But I don't wanna battle this hell
 Its's that shit that got me drinking again
 And again, and again and again and again
 Its's that shit that got me drinking again
 Always complicating every situation
 Memories displaced, I've been impatient
 That's the shit that got me caught in the end... the end the end