Starting Over

We all have to start over sometime,
 somewhere. Once there, how do we know where to go?
 Today another friend has moved on
 And it makes me think about all who've gone
 Some I haven't heard from since
 One or two I should have kissed
 Some I've forgotten and some I really miss
 The most recent
 Left for good reason
 She's going out to experience life
 And it's turned today into a serious night
 And I'm alone, cleaning my apartment
 Wondering what's going to start next
 Because this is another beginning
 And I'm listening
 To the future, but my ear sight's a little cloudy
 Fear might make me drowsy
 This clear night shapes the town we
 Found each other in
 And I'm wondering
 As I stare at the silhouette
 If it's too early to hit the pillow yet
 But I won't give into the gravity
 Of depravity
 I will gladly see
 That I have to be
 Going forward
 Until those no more words
 Then I can just feel
 What I know is real
 We all have to start over sometime,
 somewhere. Once there, how do we know where to go?
 I've moved on many times myself
 And seen the struggle in someone else
 They wish me luck, but hate saying goodbye
 Could I
 Be the good guy
 By leaving my friends
 Not knowing if I'd see them again
 Was I being selfish
 With my well wish
 I had to follow my heart and dreams
 And they both got ripped apart at the seems
 I couldn't see through the gleam
 Reflecting off my tears
 Rejecting all the fears
 And expecting all the years
 Ahead of me
 To be the best I'd see
 As the future filled with my present with hope
 I wonder how those in my past will cope
 Leaving without a rope
 Or a safety net
 It made me sweat
 But it had not made me crazy yet
 Because I was too excited
 To hide it
 I had to try it
 I had to take the leap
 That would make me weap
 Whether tears of joy, or tears of sorrow
 I couldn't know until tomorrow
 Had become yesterday
 So I could feel blessed today
 Until my friend went away
 While I get to stay
 And start over again
 As I go for the win
 I know that I'll spin
 The wheel of fate many more times
 As I feel the weight send towards mine
 So I breathe deep
 And try to keep
 My balance
 Knowing that it shall hinge
 On more than a stripped rusted screw
 Building upon what I knew
 And overcoming what I don't
 I won't
 Stop starting
 To matter how hard things
 Seem to be
 My tears will always reflect the gleam in me
 We all have to start over sometime,
 somewhere. Once there, how do we know where to go?