Then I'll Be Smiling

Trailed by a mess
 Of masking tape
 Construction paper
 The best of intentions
 He tried to patch up every hole as he went
 Back and forth and back again
 And his friends half full of half concerns
 Embarrassed looks and tired words
 They burrowed deeper
 Into the ignorant little lives they preferred
 And he envied their distance
 Their lack of concern
 He thought
 Once I shed the whole of me
 Once I shed the whole of me
 Then I'll be smiling
 He cursed himself
 And his instinct to nurse every idea to health
 And all of the falls that he'd spent
 Trying to coax his name from the mouths of success
 He thought
 Once I shed the whole of me
 Once I shed the whole of me
 Then I'll be smiling
 Litter me with small awarenesses
 Then they ask if I'm good enough
 Litter me with small awarenesses
 Just to wake me up
 Why do the fools wake me up?
 Once I shed the whole of me
 Once I shed the whole of me
 Then I'll be smiling
 Litter me with small awarenesses
 And then they ask if I'm good enough
 Litter me with small awarenesses
 Just to wake me up
 Litter me with small awarenesses
 They have the gall to ask if I'm good enough
 Litter me with small awarenesses
 Just to wake me up
 Why do the fools wake me up?