Anxiety

I don't really want
 To keep on doing this
 But I do it anyway
 Need to get over it
 But it's oppressing me to stay...
 I know I should be laughing
 Feeling grateful and blessed
 But depression is haunting me again
 Anxiety won't allow me to rest...
 Obliged to do a daily check
 The doors,the windows,my things
 Everything must be safe
 The answers so correct
 Can't just check them once
 Three times still not enough
 And it's driving me mad...
 I know I should be laughing
 Feeling grateful and blessed
 But depression is haunting me again
 Anxiety won't allow me to rest...
 I can see you're annoyed
 By what I do
 But I can't promise change
 If it's not true
 In reality is annoying me too
 My tendencies I didn't choose
 It's actually bothering me more
 Than it does to you
 My apology is the proof...
 I know I should be laughing
 Feeling grateful and blessed
 But depression is haunting me again
 Anxiety won't allow me to rest...