This Isn't Heaven, It Must Be Hell

I'm so tired
 Living a lie
 I'm weak, I need to leave this lonely life
 I'm so fed up of lonely nights
 I sleep away my days to pass the time
 Help me believe I'm something more
 Incapable, at least I'm still trying
 You don't know what it's like to live alone, mm
 Keep tryna climb over mountains
 While I'm so locked up in the silence
 Give me one good reason I shouldn't go
 Don't wait for me, I'm frozen
 Right between my burdens
 Can't save me from myself
 There's no way that I deserve this
 Fail to see my purpose
 This isn't Heaven, it must be Hell
 I'm letting go off what I'm waiting for
 I know I'm worth it, but I feel so worthless
 And it's not so worth it, no
 I'm losing hope
 I'm out of control
 The pain that's inside keeps me so locked inside
 Not a fan of my pride, I know
 Help me believe I'm something more
 Than late nights staying up 'til the morning
 You don't know what it's like to be alone
 Keep tryna climb over mountains
 While I can't get up off my mattress
 Give me one good reason I shouldn't go-oh-oh
 So misguided, got me falling to my knees (falling to my knees)
 Empty practice I could never hope to preach (never hope to preach)
 Hollow words don't ever seem to bring me peace
 My faith was made fragile by vacant response
 That life they promised me was a lie
 I fell and burned, they told me I'd fly
 Waist deep in frigid water, I drown
 I inhale to drift further down to my end
 Don't wait for me, I'm frozen
 Right between my burdens
 Can't save me from myself
 There's no way that I deserve this
 I fail to see my purpose
 This isn't Heaven, it must be Hell