Older Than My Old Man Now

If I remain still
 If I am alone and silent long enough to hear the sound of my own blood
 Breathing or digesting about the rustling of leaves the world of refrigerator
 My father is likely to turn up
 He just arrived on bidding on running film of my thoughts
 Like Hitchcock and his pictures
 And he looks of all these 40 plus years of
 Just much like himself big and hairs hands with . at the back of his hands
 Perhaps a little more defeated the way it holds himself than I have remembered
 He doesn't stay long and as far as I can tell his visit has no message
 Yet years of therapy have left me and make the dark . claim that he is finally dead and gone
 My father who died when I was seventeen continues to be my principle ghost
 A lifelong and announced grease only my own end will finish it
 Older than my old man now.
 He died at 63. That's way too young.
 Now you've got to feed me, now you've got to need me
 And I feel like a faithless son.
 Sixty-four is awful old.
 You know what can happen next.
 Hell, I'm older than my old man ever was
 And I'm trying to keep it in context.
 I am older than my old man
 His father died and 43 now is all grey
 I got 20 years more I guess we have to wait and see
 I wasn't sure the day will come
 I have been living underneath his...
 I don't feel so free I don't feel like me
 Now that I don't have no place to run
 I am older than my old man now
 I guess that means I kicked his ass
 Just that you have survived . nobody is sure exactly why
 Everybody has to die
 Still it comes this . know you got to go
 And the world is gonna pass you by
 I am older than my old man
 I am older than my old man ever was
 I try to keep it in context
 I am older than my old man ever was
 I am guilty to outlive my ex