Fear

I am far from what I've been
 A new world for me to see
 All precious things that I have seen
 Look simple and so small to me
 All banners waved are set aflame
 As mountains rise in front me
 No mercy and no one to blame
 For the darkness I will to see
 With every aspect of my soul
 I am longing for relief
 From this darkest certainty
 I wish I could believe
 Every second I seek answers
 To the question that has none
 That has to remain unanswered
 Until we are gone
 With every hour that I spend
 On exploring this terrain
 Fear is growing, ever onward
 How long can I stand this pain?
 With every aspect of my soul
 I am longing for relief
 From this darkest certainty
 I wish I could believe
 With every aspect of my soul
 I am longing for relief
 From this darkest certainty
 I just wish I could believe
 That there will be something
 After bodies cease to be
 The fear that there could be nothing
 Is paralysing me