5AM in Amsterdam

Yea
 Keep quiet never speak on no man
 Who am I to judge, complain or condemn
 I make profit off judgement directed towards me, I'm different than them
 You see men walking around with baggage, I'm no different than them
 Nothing new to me, having different smears on my name
 They talk and talk like they got something to gain
 Like I could give a fuck about the next thing anybody gone say
 I got one goal and that's to be on top of my game
 We sit and talk about money and how rich we all wanna be
 Discuss short-term goals like what we'll accomplish this week
 Are you applying principles needed consecutively
 To be a better man than the one you aspire to be
 Some come around like "money don't make you happy, I doubt"
 I'm like "I'm already happy the fuck you talking about"
 We all got shit on our plates we all gotta worry about
 Except for fam and finance nothing's worth stressing about
 More come around like "don't you have a backup plan set"
 Like I would rather be dead than settle for anything less
 I'm given one life and I don't give a fuck bout what's next
 Everybody don't make it and I guess that's for the best, that's double meaning
 Yea
 Ain't no way around it
 My mom's always like "find somebody to talk about it"
 "Cause I know you got problems and you don't talk about it"
 A mother knows I can tell, I never complain about it
 Dark place, a lonely state
 Million thoughts and voices invade my private space
 If I'm not drinking at night, I would feel my heartbeat raise
 I can finally say that I'm in a solid state
 Yea
 I take responsibility for everything that happens to me
 You seek attention and approval when you talk about me
 Whether you love me or hate me, it makes no difference to me
 You live in fantasy thinking that you got leverage on me
 Long distance relationship with the people that I love the most
 The shit a man would do to reach all his goals
 It gets discouraging out when you walk a lonely road
 Just keep your head up and have faith and don't lose your hope
 I got people keeping me in line
 And they'll address me everytime I'm acting out of line
 I know exactly who's concerned about how I feel inside
 I know who wants me to fall and who wants to see me thrive
 Yea
 Lost relationships, people I feel like I should reach out to them
 Pride that holds me back from reaching out to them
 I know I'm stubborn in ways, when it comes to making amends
 Lack of interest and reasons to try and reason with them
 Wide awake, I take a walk outside, 5AM in Amsterdam
 Light up a cigarette, it's -1 out
 I talk to something, whatever it is, it hears me call out
 And ask for love as they get close and I kick them all out
 Half a bottle down, I'm running out of cigarettes now
 My mind's not quiet enough to sleep, so I'll go the next round
 Keep people out, I need to be alone to figure shit out
 Talk to the wall with all the lights out, as I sit on the couch
 And seriously, when you're down no one takes you seriously
 And as you're walking forward, make sure that you do it carefully
 I lost count of who out here dreaming of ending me
 Sometimes I lose means to stay sain and not move revengefully
 No mercy in a world without fairness and justice
 Make sure you level leverage to a higher abundance
 Rise up and stay immune to a state of redundance
 It's unable for the opps to confront it
 Yea