Like a River (feat. Elijah James)

In sweet dreams, I kid myself
 Have your love for good
 I really had hoped you'd stay
 But like the river, you just come and go
 And these things, they comfort me
 When my mind's on you
 And I feel you comfort me
 But like the river, it just comes and goes
 I used to think that you was Superman when I was younger (yeah)
 Findin' comfort in your voice when I was down and under
 Put you on a pedestal and now I kinda wonder if that made sense
 'Cause I'm convinced you showed a lot of colors (yeah)
 All them night is was alone, I hid inside thе covers
 Used to argue with my moms whеnever I was stubborn (facts)
 I never warmed up to the idea of a step-dad because he wasn't you
 And you and him ain't even like each other (word)
 Used to bring me 'round your girlfriends as I recall
 I thought one or two was cool, but I ain't like 'em all
 'Cause all you ever did was argue 'bout who's right or wrong
 And you ain't have no job
 So you would sit at home and light a bong (yeah)
 Used to crave for your attention, but I never got it
 And everything you said we'd do is just another promise
 You had dreams of bein' famous and I never doubted
 But I started rhymin' to impress you, if we bein' honest (facts)
 But we can have some bondin' time and maybe pow-wow
 A father/son relationship that we can smile 'bout
 At time's you got abusive and I had to bow down
 Or keep on makin' music to try and compete with Bow Wow
 Your father died when you was young, I think that made a scar
 I started thinkin' maybe that's why you the way you are (nah)
 End of the day, no excuse for how you played your part
 Told myself when I became a father, I'ma raise the bar (word)
 We had a lot of fallin' outs and didn't talk for years
 And all them birthdays and holidays got awfully weird
 You throw me in a foster home and I was brought to tears
 Livin' with some strangers
 Feelin' anxious, I was lost and scared (Yeah)
 And now I'm starin' at the river tryna get across
 And all I see if apparitions of what never was
 And everything I used to wish for is dead and lost
 And if I never see your ass again, I'll be better off
 I'll be better off (yeah)
 You are so negative (uh)
 And you say you know
 But you know a goddamn thing
 Like the river, you just run and go
 You say you could do good
 And better you know
 But you tried no goddamn thing
 Like the river, I'ma run from you
 I told myself I wouldn't write a song, but fuck it, I did
 Oftentimes, I sit and wonder if it's somethin' I did
 Or maybe I was immature, but is it somethin' I said?
 I can't help but feel the feelin' that there's somethin' I missed
 I told you somethin' happened to me and you ain't protect me (yeah)
 You tried to say you ain't believe me as you disrespect me (facts)
 Plus, you never had my back, in fact, you may resent me in a way
 'Cause everythin' I say, you try to use against me (word)
 And I never knew your other kids, but I knew of 'em (true)
 I'm not really sure if I like 'em, but I do love 'em (do)
 Shit, I don't even think you knew but just a few of 'em
 'Cause all your baby mothers stayed away to keep you from 'em (word)
 You probably out fillin' they heads with shit that's not the truth
 You probably told 'em that I switched up when I got some loot (uh)
 You probably told 'em that I'm greedy and I'm not so cool
 That I worship the devil and I sold my soul to cop a pool (yeah)
 I worked my ass off to get rich, let's not confuse
 I sacrificed my whole twenties just so I can move (true)
 While everybody else was chillin', hangin' out with crews
 I was writin' a plan to finally win while tryin' not to lose (true)
 I still remember signin' my deal and you got hella funny
 And at that time, you probably figured I had hella money (yeah)
 But I only got a small advance
 So I ain't even get a chance to hold you down
 'Cause then you started gettin' jealous of me
 But I'm worth a couple million now, I turned out fine (yeah)
 I copped my moms a big crib and went and got mine
 An indoor pool with a house made and I'm not lyin' (nope)
 A happy son who loves his dad, it's about time (yeah)
 But I'm still starin' at the river tryna get across
 And all I see if apparitions of what never was
 And everything I used to wish for is dead and lost
 And if I never see your ass again, then I'll be better off
 Nigga, I'll be better off
 Karma comes back and it's co-co-comin' (co-co-comin')
 Treatin' me bad and I'm ru-ru-runnin' (ru-ru-runnin')
 Karma comes back and it's co-co-comin' (co-co-comin')
 Treatin' me bad, I'm ru-ru-runnin' (ru-ru-runnin')
 And congratulations, nigga, you won
 And all the love you never gave me, I can give to my son
 Eternal love to my child, we'll forever be one
 Thanks to you, I know the man that I would never become
 Never become