Still

It's been a long time since we last spoke
 I still wonder what you're up to
 After all the shit we've been through
 And I've been spending a lot of time drinking and smoking
 Hoping to subdue
 The thought of you in my head
 So if you're out there somewhere
 And if you still even care
 Possibly still questioning what is he doing
 I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain
 Since you've been away
 I don't wanna feel anymore
 And there's probably people telling you that I'm doing fine
 Just taking my time
 Although it appears that I'm strong
 It still hurts
 There's been a lot of nights when I feel alone
 Needed someone to talk to
 'Cause I just need to get through
 And I've been spending a lot of money
 On things that I don't need
 Hoping that I'll feel new
 But I can't get you out my head
 So if you're out there somewhere
 And if you still even care
 Possibly still questioning what is he doing
 I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain
 Since you've been away
 I don't wanna feel anymore
 And there's probably people telling you that I'm doing fine
 Just taking my time
 Although it appears that I'm strong
 I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain (girl, I've been trying to find a way)
 Since you've been away (a way that I can numb this pain)
 I don't wanna feel anymore (I don't wanna feel)
 And there's probably people telling you
 That I'm doing fine (I'm just trying to get you outta my head)
 Just taking my time
 Although it appears that I'm strong
 It still hurts