you, every time

You stumble in, I search for words
 We've been here before
 On the side of your bed
 Closest to the door
 Through the blur in my eyes
 It was clear I was dying
 But I just needed you
 Needed one last night
 When you wake
 I'll be miles away
 What was all this for?
 Memories in your bottoms drawer
 Fighting at your parents place
 You tell me "i can't deal this way"
 I tell you "I'm leaving"
 You say "no i don't mean it"
 So i cry into my pillow case
 I guess your mind has changed
 Again
 Again and again
 When i see it in my head
 I know it isn't right
 But when i hold you my hands
 I choose you every time
 I'm in a dark hotel room
 You're somewhere in the wind
 I should open up the blinds
 Shouldn't have let you in
 Wanna burn down your town
 Do you see me now
 I'm broken and pathetic
 Oh you must be proud
 Still I think
 There's a chance
 God,you hurt so bad
 Cry until I suffocate
 Can't breath until you say my name
 I wish I didn't need it
 I wish i didn't mean it
 I know you're someone! should hate
 What do you expect me to say
 When i see it in my head
 I know it isn't right
 But when i hold you my hands
 I choose you every time
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 Can't say goodbye
 So hang up the phone
 Didn't want me then
 But never let me know
 When i see it in my head
 I always I justify
 I know it isn't right
 I choose you
 And if I'm just too much
 How am i not enough?
 And if you never called it love
 Why'd i think it was?