Suicide Hotline - (Monoxide Remix)

It ain't no point to me waking up,
 everybody's time I'm taking up,
 I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near,
 I can't stay here and it's colder there,
 I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt,
 I slice my wrist and it's gonna squirt,
 For me everybody holds a hate,
 I got backstabbed and everybody holds the stake,
 it's no roads to take I'm in a circle drive,
 bustin' at myself and I'm tryna survive,
 I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down,
 and I ain't got many home boys comin' round,
 you don't understand so don't say you do,
 I swear I'll put a mother fuckin' slug in you,
 I'm the only one, the lonely one,
 and at home loading a gun thinking why not?
 I got court comin' up, I stole a truck,
 I got a bitch pregnant and I'm broke as fuck,
 I wanna get high but i got piss test,
 I'm always first name on top of the shit list,
 get this, the witch has made my chest,
 it's permanent nightly visiting nest,
 it ain't no clothes I look good in,
 I'm the mother fuckin' big red train that couldn't,
 I got no family I stole they shit,
 restraining orders and I still won't quit,
 I hit rock bottom, and I fell in a hole,
 and I fell through the floor of that hole some more,
 I been missin for a year, nobody's lookin',
 I got beat down and my shit tookin',
 I look ahead and all I see is more of the same
 or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain!
 I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel,
 the dreams are gettin' serious think I'm in trouble,
 I don't hold memory for more than an hour,
 I'm tire as fuck and I'm drained of power,
 I ain't half way there and I'm outta time,
 I'm like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine,
 I been around the world but no place is home,
 I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome,
 I'm butt-naked, I been jackin' off gettin' drunk,
 it's my last hours alive who gives a fuck?
 It don't matter. I'm doing the shit in the garage,
 tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage,
 this bitch I loved, I hope she finds me,
 still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me,
 I'm about to do it,
 Can you hold for a second...
 Hello?