All I've Lost

(Denying my reality)
 Close my eyes and count to ten
 Am I dreaming? It's happened again
 Fight the feeling, just knowing's enough
 Don't believe it, I just need the rush
 Hold my breath and count to ten, is this real?
 It's happened again, can't conceal
 It's never enough, so surreal
 All it takes is a push
 My existence has become
 Denying my reality
 You're not what you thought you were
 And I am everything you feared I'd be
 My existence has become
 Denying my reality
 You're not what you thought you were
 And I am everything you feared I'd be
 Sins of the flesh
 They all wither and die
 Oh, open your wings
 Fly me to death, sweet succubi
 Close my eyes and count to ten
 Am I dreaming? It's happened again
 Fight the feeling, just knowing's enough
 Don't believe it, I just need the rush
 Hold my breath and count to ten, is this real?
 It's happened again, can't conceal
 It's never enough, so surreal
 All it takes is a push
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 Look in their eyes and it's easy to see
 The resentment they hold when they're staring at me
 All the things I should be
 Truth be told when I'm aiming for gold
 There's no stopping me
 All of the pain and the sickness and sacrifice
 Fighting the hubris, the greed and the avarice
 What is the cost?
 Is it worth it for all that I've lost?
 Please forgive me
 My existence has become
 Denying my reality
 You're not what you thought you were
 And I am everything you feared I'd be
 My existence has become
 Denying my reality
 You're not what you thought you were
 And I am everything you feared I'd be
 My existence has become
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 You're not what you thought you were
 And I am everything you feared I'd be