Larry Jr.

i just wanted to be the face of neutrality
 i never wanted to leave.
 sinking in, striking out
 shifty tongue, broken ideas
 the machine inside me
 spits out numbers violently,
 vomits expletives unnecessarily.
 it won't let me be.
 i want to see the birds and the bees
 won't always be permanent.
 to everybody that i love today:
 i want to feel ashamed.
 i can see the birds and the bees
 will always be permanent
 and if the world teams up on me, i guess.
 i only want you around when you're not around.
 but now you're gone,
 brushing your teeth with a cigarette.
 i only want you around when you're not around.
 but now you're gone,
 choking on a cigarette.
 i can see the birds and the bees.
 i want to feel affirmative.
 i believe in what you believe--
 i'm pouring under,
 spilling under,
 i'm down on my knees.