Heat Death

So I'm rewriting history again
 Trying to make sense of all these contradictions
 Have I been living a lie?
 Am I just believing what I was told?
 I never dreamed up or planned this
 This dark night of the soul
 I always thought you would catch me
 But what if you don't?
 You always said that I'm more than a moment
 I need something more I can hold
 Because it ended the same way it started
 And I'm left here waiting alone
 I'm searching hard for the truth
 It's really all that I want
 Thought I would find it in you
 What if I'm wrong?
 You always said that I'm more than a moment
 I need something more I can hold
 Because it ended the same way it started
 And I'm left here waiting alone
 If I cannot break free
 Of everything holding me down
 I'll find a back door
 I'll find another way out of this hell