Happiness

I really hope that you find happiness
 And the book you write's magnificent
 And I won't help but stare at every word
 It would burn holes in many mattresses
 After I place it down, read in full
 That lovely little book titled, "I Told You So"
 Yeah, you're thorough-ly mad at the world
 Yeah, and it sucks, but this place will never change
 It'll probably get way worse, at best, stay the same
 So, you'll be fucking world renowned
 While I'm getting drunk at my house
 Thinking about the dumb words I said when I was a bit too high
 Those two pills I took felt very nice
 But made me break your lovely little heart
 And I said, "Ashley, that's so fucking dumb
 To think that life just hands you some book
 That you barely have to write
 It's gonna take like fucking four or five bad books nobody would ever like
 For you to live that wonderful life"
 And she stopped
 And she cried
 That night
 And she's right, she's gonna write that book
 That's gonna make me look
 Like a fucking fool
 And I know that she'll find happiness
 And her book will be magnificent
 And I won't help but stare at every word
 It would burn holes in all these mattresses
 After I place it down, read in full
 That lovely little book titled, "I Told You So"
 Yeah, you're thorough-ly mad at me
 But so what?
 I'm never gonna change
 I'll probably get way worse, at best, stay the same
 So, I'll sit and I will drink myself
 To either sleep or my untimely death
 Either way, I hope that you don't cry, you know?
 That's just a part of life
 Derek's father and my father know
 Cirrhosis is a tough way to go
 So when we drink a lot after our show
 Pretending that we're not even scared at all
 Genetics are what make me go to bed because
 There's something that's inside my head
 That will click and make me drink until I'm dead
 And Derek's dad and my dad are done
 So I will sit and I will think
 About this life
 And if I even like it
 But I know that I'm gonna find a little bit of
 Happiness
 I think it's in my house or somewhere else
 But I am turning over every stone
 And I will search the fucking depths of this
 Stupid place my kids will have to live
 In order just to smile a little bit, but you know
 I'm thorough-ly in love with you
 And yeah, I'm really scared that I may never change
 But I'm so fucking done being so afraid
 I really hope that you find happiness