On the Edge

I can not love
 I can not trust
 Waste too much time by giving a fuck
 Feelin' everything I do isn't enough
 Clock has been ticking but time is enough
 I fight with myself
 Got to make right by myself
 Tears in my eyes while I write by myself
 Depressed for a while
 Put my life on the shelf
 Wasn't fucking with nobody else
 I was on stagnate
 Life was just passing
 I was so jealous of people who laughin'
 Felt like my life was beginning to crash
 And I found someone else that was equally damaged
 I guess that pain could bring people together
 And fuel the desire and fire for passion
 Then I went through it
 And no one was riding
 For me, I felt like my whole life was collapsing
 Thought I was happy
 I was just actin'
 It's such a place I could never imagine
 Thought about quitting on that flight to New York
 Before I got paid for McDonald's for Rapping
 You could keep sayin' I'm trash
 Guarantee that I'm an artist that's gonna be last
 And sweater and shit you could tell me
 I already know if you dream it then that shit could happen
 Oh, i'm still searching
 Waiting
 Standing on the edge
 Watching
 Learning
 How to love again
 If you thinkin' I'm for love
 Well you hella wrong
 Fuck a blog co sign
 Labels wanna sign me for leg and arm on
 But I'm a fucking take what I deserve
 Like I'm Levy on
 Sayin' that I'm this
 They saying that I'm that
 Some are saying that i'm sick
 Others saying that I'm wack
 Put my blood, sweat and even tears in every single track
 And every word I'd never take it back
 Had this dream since I was thirteen
 Same pair of jeans
 Didn't have much
 So music is what I ate, slept and breath
 Almost turned to the pill and the liquor and the weed
 Music is what kept me off the streets
 We were five deep
 Two beds and I never had my own room
 Everyone was rocking next too close to me in home room
 Brothers were my only friends
 The only ones I'm close too
 Everyone's a snake or they go shoo
 Lot of friends
 That I used to share clothes with
 They the same ones that I'm not close too
 Now when I come around people wanna know shit
 Heh, but y'all don't know what I go through
 Lot of friends
 That I used to share clothes with
 They the same ones that I'm not close too
 Now when I come around people wanna know shit
 Nah, I don't even fucking know you
 Oh, i'm still searching
 Waiting
 Standing on the edge
 Watching
 Learning
 How to love again
 Oh, i'm still searching
 Waiting
 Standing on the edge
 Watching
 Learning
 How to love again