Too Far Down

I'm down again
 And I don't know how to tell you
 But maybe this time I can't come back
 Because I might be too far down
 I wish for real
 That I could turn it on and off
 Like hot and cold and up and down
 Because I'm down again
 I'm too far down
 I couldn't begin to smile
 Because I can't even laugh or cry
 Because I just can't do it
 If it was so easy to be happy
 Why am I so down?
 All I can do is sit and wonder if it's going to end
 Or if I should just go away forever
 When I sit and think
 I wish that I just could die
 Or let someone else be happy
 By setting my own self free
 And you don't want the emotion
 Because the taste it leaves is for real
 But nothing's ever real until it's gone
 And I might be too far down
 And is this just another thrown away
 Or is this the end of the whole stupid road
 But you wouldn't want to know how I feel anyway
 Because the darkest hole is at the end of the road
 I'm down again
 And I guess I'm not the only one who dreams
 That there's not any way to tell you
 Because I might be too far down