Fear And Trembling (MTV Unplugged Live In Melbourne)

There's a moosehead hanging
 From a wall at a bar at a
 Nondescript part of the street
 There's a long-haired boy
 Making eyes at a john
 By the lamplights hung from the beams
 We're at the stumbling phase
 Of the midnight waltz
 At a bookend to the weirdest of weeks
 Me and Arnold walk
 Pretty hammered and crying
 "Hey, I'll miss you man, when you leave"
 Yeah, I'll miss you when you leave
 'Coz there are feelings that are strong
 And there are ones that are mixed
 At the dawn of my young life's eclipse
 I was a boy once, now;
 I'm a kind-of-adult
 Catching up on the cool shit I missed
 'Coz we were raised where the pastors
 They danced in the aisles
 With a moshpit up front full of youths
 So if faith is to lose
 The mind to win God
 Then I guess I got nothing to prove
 I guess I got nothing to prove
 I was waiting on the future
 But the future only came
 In the form of greying matter
 In my only father's brain
 I'm not afraid of acquiescing
 To the trials of his old age
 But of missing all the humanness
 He'll show when I'm away
 And the part of me unspoken
 And the part that's self assured
 Are belligerents divergent
 In a psychic civil war
 But I'm a crier and a fighter
 Not a faker and a fraud
 So if losing my religion
 Is the way to finding God
 Then light it up
 The shadow's in my blood
 "Oh, a weary heart", they say
 "It shatters it all"
 So light it up
 It's bound to be much worse
 When you get get get get back to the summer
 If you get get get get back to the summer at all
 There's an omen now of frailty
 Hanging heavy from my face
 A kind of existential loneliness
 That struts and frets a stage
 And disappears unsatiated by
 The rhythms of the day
 Still illuminating nothing
 But the love I turn away
 And I still care about the present
 And the weight of circumstance
 To the muckraking of cowards
 And a symphony of sass
 While I have questions of mortality
 The clear and present vast
 They just yell the words "pretentious"
 "With no clarity or class"
 So light 'em up
 Their shadows in my blood
 "Oh, a weary heart", they say
 "It shatters it all"
 So line 'em up
 It's bound to be much worse
 Oh, when you get get get get back to the summer
 If you get get get get back to the summer
 When you get get back to the summer
 If you get get get get back to the summer at all
 One time
 I feel everything
 Yeah I feel it all
 And I feel it in my bones and in my fucking skull
 I feel everything
 Yeah I feel it all
 And I never look back
 Oh, and I feel it in my heart attack
 And I feel it all
 I feel everything
 And I know it's weird
 And I fought the fear and trembling
 'Coz I feel it all
 I feel everything
 And I never looked back
 This fear, this fear is trembling
 And I waited on forever
 But forever never came
 Just a latent sense of loyalty
 To the things I love in vain
 And now I'm terrified of loving
 'Coz I'm terrified of pain
 And of missing out on human things
 By cowering away
 So light 'em up
 Those shadows in my blood
 "Oh, a weary heart", they say
 "It shatters it all"
 So light 'em up
 It's bound to be much worse
 Oh, when you get get get get back to the summer
 If you get get get get back to the summer
 When you get get back to the summer
 If you get get get get back to the summer at all