Rookie

I never thought this could be me
 I guess you never do
 Until it's happening to you
 Like all the fun turns into shame
 And all the could-have-beens
 Rearrange
 So little time, so many crimes
 Guilt like a chain
 Chokes my will away
 Redemption never seemed so cruel
 And all my gods
 Never seemed so weak
 Wake up, engage
 Now derailed and enraged
 Used to be so easy
 Get up, I'm game
 Now I'm sick and I'm tame
 Counting cost with lost
 Where is the hope they gave
 I don't think that I can't hear you laugh
 I used to be a lot like you
 But now I'm only me
 I used to be a lot like you
 But now I'm only me, I'm only me
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 Drink to pills, to shots, turns into a shock, a habit and a pawn
 For every hand goes round the pain gets so damn loud
 The hammer hits and I'm down, and I'm down and I'm down, and I'm down
 Trust no one, hey, why should I?
 They gave me the poison dressed like life
 Cheated, smacked up and diseased
 Cry to sleep and fight to eat
 Used to be a pro at this
 Now I've broken my own wrist
 Rotten teeth and life unsung
 You'll forget me when I'm gone
 Wake up, engage
 Now derailed and enraged
 It used to be so easy
 Get up, I'm game
 Now I'm sick and I'm tame
 Counting cost with lost
 When I used to be a lot like you
 But now I'm only me
 When I used to be a lot like you
 But now I'm only me, I'm only me!