Happy Birthday

Happy birthday, so make a wish
 Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been
 Would you've been a little angel or an angel of sin?
 Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys
 Or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes
 I payed for the murder before they determined the sex
 Choosing our life over your life meant your death
 And you never got a chance to even open your eyes
 Sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you fought for your life
 Would you have been a little genius in love with math?
 Would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad?
 Would you have been a little rapper like your poppa The Piper?
 Would you have made me quit smokin' by finding one of my lighters?
 I wonder about your skin tone and shape of your nose?
 And the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow?
 Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
 Happy birthday, love you whoever you would've been
 Happy birthday
 All I thought was a dream, make a wish
 Was as real as it seemed, happy birthday
 All I thought was a dream, make a wish
 Was as real as it seemed, I made a mistake
 I've got a million excuses to why you died
 And other people got their own reasons for homicide
 Who's to say it would've worked and who's to say it wouldn't have?
 I was young and strugglin' but old enough to be your dad
 The fear of being a father has never disappeared
 Pondering frequently while I'm sippin' on my beer
 My vision of a family was artificial and fake
 So when it came time to create I made a mistake
 Now you've got a little brother, maybe he's really you?
 Maybe you really forgave us knowin' we was confused?
 Maybe every time that he smiles it's you proudly
 Knowin' that your father's doin' the right thing now?
 I never tell a woman what to do with her body
 But if she don't love children then we can't party
 Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
 Happy birthday, love you whoever you would've been
 Happy birthday
 All I thought was a dream, make a wish
 Was as real as it seemed, happy birthday
 All I thought was a dream, yeah, make a wish
 Was as real as it seemed, I made a mistake
 And from the heavens to the womb to the heavens again
 From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin
 Maybe one day we could meet face to face?
 In a place without time and space, happy birthday
 From the heavens to the womb to the heavens again
 From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin
 Maybe one day we could meet face to face
 In a place without time and space, happy birthday
 All I thought was a dream, make a wish
 Was as real as it seemed, happy birthday
 All I thought was a dream, make a wish
 Was as real as it seemed, I made a mistake