When Will It End

No way out- neither through screaming nor through crying
 Only fleeing and hiding seems to make sense
 Day by day I go through hell- my own one created by me
 In me hope keeps me alive- nothing else to hold on to
 I want to end it- I have to end it- I want to leave it all behind
 It's grinding me- I have to liberate me- I have to leave it all behind
 Recalling the memories- when will it end
 What I left behind. The feeling is so real. Recalling what I've lost- pushes my power away
 Regarding what I leave behind, the feeling is still so real- so painful
 Recalling what I've lost pushes away every power
 This numb feeling the agony has to end- no other thought enters my head
 Nothing else has a name
 Freedom, freedom - I don't care how much to pay