Heroin or Suicide?

Hey see you know what I, I know what I dont
 You promise you promise and I know you won't
 The problems and pressures we face everyday
 Are sometimes more like but always on display
 It breaks in your ears it aches in your bones and brings you to tears
 With various incisions you load another bullet
 Your shootin' with precision
 I'm talented with atrophy yea i do it well
 you know I'd like to take a break from suffering in hell
 Squattin' is the excuse is I frequently abuse
 Either way I hold the chain im gonna need a noose cause PAIN!!!!!!!!
 Sweats on my skin, sick with bad memories and burns for my sin PAIN!!!!!!!
 To talk with each breath
 The only solution is the sweet taste of death!
 Don't mistake the demeanor
 My kindness and weakness
 I'll burn you with reality
 While you cry to your Jesus
 You're suffocating in two
 You're choking in an empty room
 You're empty life thats ending soon
 Completely spells your doom
 I made a choice deep inside
 heroin or suicide?
 sickness praised in times of need
 we waste away from hands of greed
 Jesus nailed to wooded T's
 cannot compete with my disease
 humanity the weak condition my soul is sick from my decision
 PAIN!!! The badness increases
 The goodness wants to cry while we are cut to pieces
 PAIN!!! Precious death
 Paralysed with apathy thats all thats fucking left!
 PAIN!!!