So Many Nights

So many nights I pray that this would just... stop...
 I woke out of my sleep from the sound... of a pop lock
 My heart would drop to the ground
 Maybe the fact my pops wasn't around forced you to find
 These guys that would just knock you down or beat you around
 (I dont know) my innocense was lost back then, not to be found
 And in a sense its like this world was just weighing me down
 Leaning its weight hard on my shoulder's
 Making my heart less warm and much more colder
 Chip off my tooth and a chip on my shoulders
 I told yall that I dont play... I see that drama every god damn day
 So go ahead yep yab away... cause now you got alot to say
 Cast your judgements, cast all your stones, holdin my hand, holdin on to everything I have
 Because its slippin away soo fast and its all I have...
 I was like six then we aint have a pot to piss in
 While most kids lives consist of shine and glisin
 Mine was lined with mischeif... a boy flippin
 Devoid the times you find joy or reminisin
 Its like time was pissin, years was passin... I was inside
 While kids was out side laughin... no time for games
 They fake toy planes was crashin, while me my life was crashin
 At night fist fights left my moms face smashed in
 Her mans blasted... threw her down a flight of stairs
 Alone and scared, I stared in eyes of men who didnt care
 My father was never there, now I am prepared for this lifetime
 Thats unfair, just like my fight from the bottom to the top
 Just like I had to fight for all that I got, it hurts but I still wont stop
 Until my casket drops
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 So many nights I pray that this would just stop
 Just stop... just stop