If I'm Being Honest

I was told this is where I would start loving myself
 Flirting's delicious, proved to be beneficial for mental health
 All of my best bits pulled forward, collected, displayed
 Sadly I just think that I was disgusting, today
 You blew me up like a big balloon far too soon
 I'm left a stuttering teen
 How did I get here? It's all so quick, and I feel sick
 Red pushing down on the green
 Could you love this? Will this one be right?
 Well if I'm being honest, I'm hoping it might
 Could you love this? Did you plan to fall?
 Well if I'm being honest, oh I bet it's not that at all
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 Hope has a cost, keeping all fingers crossed and held tight
 But I look idiotic, with my limbs all knotted, it don't feel right
 Truly you've shaken me, and I think you like how I plead
 But I have a hunch that that's all you wanted from me
 You blew me up like a big balloon far too soon
 Holding my breath makes me choke
 How did I get here? It's all so quick, and I feel sick
 I'm used to being a joke
 Could you love this? Will this one be right?
 Well if I'm being honest, I'm hoping it might
 Could you love this? Did you plan to fall?
 Well if I'm being honest, oh I bet it's not that at all
 All
 All
 All
 Could you love this? Will this one be right?
 Well if I'm being honest, I'm hoping that it might
 Could you love this? Did you plan to fall?
 Well if I'm being honest
 If I'm being honest
 Well if I'm being honest
 Oh, I bet it's not that at all