stable life

I seem to always make a fool of myself
 I spend my nights alone
 Can't stop to face the truth 'bout myself
 Because everyone's always on the go
 Yeah, in two years, you'll be findin' a lover
 And in ten, I'll just be findin' my feet
 And I see weddin' bands, sonograms
 In your life and times, but
 All I see for me is grey
 Was I really made for that stable life, though?
 Stable life though
 I can't go on with that stable life, though
 Stable life though
 No matter how hard I try
 I never picture it like how you see your stable life
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 I have a hard time enjoyin' myself
 I'm watchin' everyone smile around me
 They go home with their boyfriends
 They go home with their friends
 And I'm left to my idle thoughts once again
 And in five years, you'll move back to this city
 Where I never felt like I was enough
 Buy that house with the brick patio
 Three roads down from where you and I grew up
 Was I really made for that stable life, though?
 Stable life though
 And I can't go on with that stable life though
 Stable life though
 No matter how hard I try
 I never picture it like how you see your stable life
 (Yeah)
 You're the girl next door (girl next door)
 The one my parents adore (parents adore)
 They secretly hoped we were more
 But you're just the girl next door