Bastards

I hope this finds you well
 A father lost and mother dear
 The family that's kept me here
 Hard lesson learned, and I've learned it well
 How to lose everything
 How to push you away
 How to lie when I say
 "I never raised a hand to the ones I love."
 Now look at how
 You beg and pray
 For your god and his grace
 To keep you safe
 To save you from me
 My broken spirit and back
 My calloused, shaking hands
 The ache I carry in me
 My grief and skeletons
 The weight you carried inside
 A weight that held my bloodline
 Black out the sunlight
 I count these burdens as mine
 And still all you see is that bastard in me
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 Believing in hell
 A father lost and mother dear
 The family that I squandered here
 Hard lesson learned, and I forgot it all
 How to lose everything
 How to push you away
 How to lie when I say
 "I never raised a hand to the ones I love."
 But I remember how
 You begged and prayed
 For your god and his grace
 To keep you safe
 To save you from me
 My broken spirit and back
 My calloused, shaking hands
 The ache I carry in me
 My grief and skeletons
 The weight you carried inside
 A weight that held my bloodline
 Black out the sunlight
 I count these burdens as mine
 And still all I see is that bastard in me