Outside Door

My movie house it holds me prisoner
 All boarded up on a dead end street
 In my darkest doubts I'm the only visitor
 Sunk down inside those dusty seats
 This world of mine in two dimensions
 It shocks my brain with all I feel
 That flickering lie will build the tension
 And I brace for pain like it was real
 I can't stop the scene from playing
 Trying ain't worth dying for
 It won't change, but I'm not staying
 I just found the outside door
 The old film that rolls, I know the story
 For all my years it's been the same
 I'll see my old moment of glory
 Fall to my fear and find my shame
 It leaves my heart empty and shallow
 No happy end and no relief
 In that endless dark my cave of shadows
 I still suspend my disbelief
 Standing in the morning wonder
 Never seen the sun before
 Broke the spell that I was under
 I just found the outside door
 There's no silver screen no satin curtain
 My state of mind plays this whole show
 The illusion seems to be so certain
 That I'm trapped inside with nowhere to go
 Inside my war with dark projection
 I try to scream but have no voice
 There is a door an outside exit
 We can be free we have a choice