Stunner

I know it sounds weird
 I do want you to look back on this and smile but
 I kinda want that smile to be through tears
 I ain't shoutin at ya - I'm shouting to ya
 Hello darkness (my old friend) let's turn you into filthy lucre
 And suture wounds and tumors with dark humor mixed with hubris
 In lieu of future suitors with a blast of nasty rumors
 Seems the light at the end of the tunnel was a fire
 Now I'm choking on the smoke in my lungs, I'm so tired
 But I can't go to sleep with a mind that's so wired
 You call that shit depression - I call it inspired
 Talk is cheap when you speak the weak prose you're throwing
 You're just a sheep in a wolf-in-sheep's-clothing's clothing
 And the holes ain't closing, just exposing goatskin
 This corrosion shows you can't control the motion
 Shit, the romance is dead? Blame the hopeless romantics
 Resigned to hopelessness their romantic plans with sycophantics
 So I won't put the nice things we do on YouTube
 Don't need the world the world to love me - I just need you to
 The world don't revolve around you but it should
 I ain't saying you're perfect, but you're really really good
 Ain't saying I love ya but I probably could
 Have
 I thought it was love but I was wrong
 Tortured a dove just to prove Prince wrong - I love that song
 I guess you broke my heart but it kinda needed breaking
 And the grating exasperatings hating's already dissipating
 "Love.it's a weird thing ain't it?" You're fucking right it is
 Enlightened by the disquiet sight, I kinda like this shit
 We fall in love with that which we project on each other
 Then settle for reality or just reject one another
 So I respect the motherfucker that reflects upon their lover
 And then lets them walk away or resurrects and recovers
 Way more than I respect those that just close up the shutters
 And ignore the shitty shell within which both of them suffers
 I wore my heart on my sleeve and you stole my fucking shirt
 But go ahead and wear that shit - happiness of the absurd
 These words divert the hurt and send me soundly to sleep
 But every word I wrote I meant so fucking read 'em and weep