Selfish

I built a house to harbor myself in
 I lock you out I know that I'm selfish
 My mother told me to follow my feet
 But my legs feel weak can't help it
 Said, I'm doing fine I'm getting no sleep
 Hold my breath every time the phone screen lights up
 Praying it's your name that I'm gonna see
 But it's not, starting to regret the cold feet I'm stuck
 Try to tell myself I'm good without you, but I'm really not
 I been having trouble trying to tell you how I feel inside
 Being by your side the only time I ever feel alive
 Don't over exaggerate, you told me that a million times
 Okay well, maybe not a million times
 But if we kept it going we could reach the sky
 I played it safe, think I need a roof
 Thought it could be me and you
 But I couldn't see it through, so
 I built a house to harbor myself in
 I lock you out I know that I'm selfish
 My mother told me to follow my feet
 But my legs feel weak can't
 I used to be your rock
 Lately you been skipping stones, you don't wanna talk
 I rather take the sticks and stones, hurts more than I thought
 I guess I got some brittle bones, so now when you knock
 Sorry baby isn't home, no
 And maybe this time it's different, yeah
 Maybe the scale is tipping, yeah
 House got a well I could wish in, yeah
 So I make wishes
 If I just wish then, I won't have to work for it
 If I just get lucky I won't have to work for it
 If I just get money I won't have to work for it
 Right?
 In the meantime
 I built a house to harbor myself in
 I lock you out I know that I'm selfish
 My mother told me to follow my feet
 But my legs feel weak can't help it
 I built a house to harbor myself in
 I lock you out I know that I'm selfish
 My mother told me to follow my feet
 But my legs feel weak can't help it