Negative Reel

Society judges through a black and white prism
 Leads me to cynical pessimism
 The best way I see living is by giving up hope
 I see the world through a rose-colored microscope
 I see patterns no one else can see, in SwItZerlANd I see reverse Nazis
 I'm an opposite, I'm a negative reel,
 I don't understand how other people feel
 Cracks in the sidewalk gimme a feeling like
 when I count tiles on my past checkered ceiling
 The only time I ever fit in, is when I wear a second skin
 Is there a lobe missing in my brain because I
 don't feel the difference between pleasure and pain
 Why waste a night laying naked together when
 we could be confined in latex or black leather?
 I love to kiss right before I'm gagged,
 I like the challenge of breathing inside a plastic bag
 I have a way to make believe make believe makes me real
 I'm so lucky that I feel things so few others feel
 I just have to feel new ways to keep my mind from reeling
 That's why I like to hang on meat hooks from the ceiling
 The only way I can turn off my brain is through exquisite pain