Doesn't matter

I'm lingering on when they kiss
 Leaning towards this abyss
 And of lately the only people I can stare
 Are the unraveled ones with their hands laying bare
 But their hands are numb and empty
 Their dull silence soothes me
 Loud whispers in my back as if I couldn't hear
 Thought I left ghosts behind
 But they're just coming near
 It doesn't matter, does it
 If I know any exit
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist
 Rage as a fabric, through and through
 Like that gaze used to do
 'Cause those suicidal thoughts that are still in my head
 Gives her that awful side-smile when I lay in bed
 It doesn't matter, does it
 If I know any exit
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist
 She's barely feeding, but she'll deny
 Ribbon-legged, she passes by
 Until she surrenders in the midst of the street
 And the guys simply stare but continue to eat
 It doesn't matter, does it
 If I know any exit
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist
 It doesn't matter, does it
 If I know any exit
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist
 And if I'm cast out
 'Cause I wanted some more
 And if this guy dances too close to the shore
 And if I could just push this door chalked on the wall
 And if after the void there's somewhere else to fall
 Forget I said it
 I soliloquize
 It's stinging nettle
 Their hands on their thighs
 Run if you stole a shard of sunlight, yeah yeah
 Don't ever tell them, I've got your back, yeah yeah
 Choking to tears with shards of sunlight, yeah yeah
 Run if you stole a shard of sunlight, yeah yeah
 Run if you stole a shard of sunlight (Oh, run)
 Don't ever tell them, I've got your back
 (Save all you can)
 Choking to tears with shards of sunlight
 (You won't be found)
 Run if you stole a shard of sunlight
 (And never come back)
 It doesn't matter, does it
 (And never come back)
 If I know any exit
 (And never come back)
 If I believe in god
 (And never come back)
 And if god does exist
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist
 (Save all)
 It doesn't matter, does it
 (And never come back)
 If I know any exit
 (Save all)
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist
 If I believe in god
 And if god does exist