A Song For The Optimist

Blow the last candle out... let the wax harden
 I wish i could stop crying... i wish someone still loved me
 Just breathe and focus... how san i when the air is so cold and empty
 That my lungs froze right in my chest
 Ill be honest the silver linings are getting harder and harder to manufacture
 And the smiles are so difficult to fake
 What do i have to do, or who do i have to kill, to get what i want what i need
 Happiness is an emotion i was born to this world without, nothing pleases me... i cannot not be satiated
 Thru this toil i will breed my own distress and destroy my best hopes, fuck up the only things i love...
 I WATCHED MY DREAMS DIE...
 I watched my aspirations crash to the ground on the backs of the angels that ive slain...
 But i meant well, i tried too hard, gave every ounce of my soul, to what end...
 Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away...