Son of Abyss

Imagine if we all shared a secret
 Maybe then we could connect in that space where we keep it
 If you and I bleed and it's the same blood
 Would I still need a reason to believe in your love?
 I'm trying to stay ahead of all the developments
 Got to acknowledge the devil in a room full of elephants
 And now I'm lookin' for an easy escape
 Open the window I'm 'bout to leap to my faith
 For real I feel depleted
 An ocean full of weeds, emotional fatigue
 Maybe if I had a bag of money I could be the crash test dummy
 Quietly standin' for somethin'
 I would love to get as fly as them
 But I fell overboard, now I'm trying to swim
 I'm still learnin' but the water is burnin'
 And the world keeps turnin' like it's not concerned, and
 I can't believe I used to love you
 You don't believe I used to love you
 But who you gonna run to
 What happened to the people that you once knew
 I'm like hold up
 You lookin' at me like I'm supposed to know what to do
 But when I see you come around
 All I think about now is how I don't fuck with you
 And even if I had a way to say to you how much I miss your kiss
 And even on a perfect day I behave like I'm nervous of the risk
 And even when I'm confident the consequence of cost another wish
 And even when it's obvious we're probably just lost in the abyss
 I'm trying to breath my way through it
 Sink into the waves
 Let 'em move me, stay fluid
 So many voices and inflections
 Multiple choices in different directions
 And even if I had the opportunity
 I don't qualify to speak on behalf of the community
 And I don't even know who that would be anymore
 I lost track of the tracks, I stopped keepin' the score
 Or maybe I've been puttin' up my own walls
 I don't return your phone calls
 Got me floatin' and bobbin' on top this pond full
 Of problems we bought from these dishonest spokesmen
 I kinda hope we turn it all into ash
 I don't wanna have to adapt to the aftermath
 The tolerance is as powerful as the pain
 You probably never know my name if you've never heard me complain
 I can't believe I used to love you
 You don't believe I used to love you
 But who you gonna run to
 What happened to the people that you once knew
 I'm like hold up
 You lookin' at me like I'm supposed to know what to do
 But when I see you come around
 All I think about now is how I don't fuck with you
 And even if I had a way to say to you how much I miss your kiss
 And even on a perfect day I behave like I'm nervous of the risk
 And even when I'm confident the consequence of cost another wish
 And even when it's obvious we're probably just lost in the abyss