Panic Attacks in Paradise

Typical of me to go and ruin the party
 Everybody says they love me, but I'm still brokenhearted
 They call me Polly Pessimism, I'm a macabre Barbie (I love you)
 My boyfriend wants to love me, but I won't let him
 I've been predisposed to trauma since I was 11
 So I wrote a couple albums to let out some aggression
 I hate that I'm so
 Self-deprecating
 More comfortable in bad situations
 Sucker for a little devastation
 And this always happens
 Panic attacks in paradise
 Piña coladas, I'm terrified
 I swear I'm not cryin', the sun's just bright
 I'm havin' the best time of my life
 Panic attacks in paradise
 Hyperventilating under candy skies
 Tellin' myself that this is fine
 I'm havin' the best time of my life
 It's a big joke
 Ha ha, I love laughin'
 It's a big hoax
 Your self-help happy
 'Cause I'm okay
 I'm pure propane
 On an open flame
 Watch me blow up
 My boyfriend wants to love me, but I won't let him
 I've been predisposed to trauma since I was 11
 So I wrote a couple albums to let out some aggression
 I hate that I'm so
 Self-deprecating
 More comfortable in bad situations
 Sucker for a little devastation
 And this always happens
 Panic attacks in paradise
 Piña coladas, I'm terrified
 I swear I'm not cryin', the sun's just bright
 I'm havin' the best time of my life
 Panic attacks in paradise
 Hyperventilating under candy skies
 Tellin' myself that this is fine
 I'm havin' the best time of my life