Ruin It

I've waited a long time for this life
 Just to ruin it, so please don't ruin this for me
 Yes I understand this lie
 Hell I crossed those T's, I scratched out all these eyes myself last night
 When I promised not to fight
 So this is what I'm looking like these days
 I'm all grown up, so full of hate
 But I don't want to let go of my rage
 'Cause it's the salt that brings the taste
 So where am I if you decide that I'm not right?
 'Cause I might break and I might bend
 Your heartstrings out of tune again
 And I might try to apologize
 On a good day
 On my best day, if you stick around
 Did I stay inside to sterilize this knife?
 Am I being too careful, does this seem right?
 Did I open up the shades to expose the sun in rays?
 To show what's burned there inside
 Yeah, take a close look, hold me right up to the light
 'Cause I might break and I might bend
 Your heartstrings out of tune again
 And I might try to apologize
 On a good day
 On my best day, if you stick around
 I've waited for so long
 I've waited for so long
 Spread me out, rake me in
 This coarse and rocky field will camouflage my skin
 And I might break and I might bend
 Your heartstrings out of tune again
 And I might try to apologize
 On a good day
 On my best day, if you stick around
 On my best day, if you stick around