Your Congratulations

I wouldn't have compromised as much.
 So much of myself for fear of having you hating me.
 I would've sung so loudly,
 It would've cracked myself.
 I became so self-conscious of anything exuberant.
 I wouldn't have sold myself short.
 I wouldn't have kept my eyes glued to the ground.
 If I had've known my invisibility would not make a difference,
 I would've run around screaming proudly at the top of my voice.
 I wouldn't have said it was in fact luck,
 I'm talking idealism here.
 I would not have been so self-deprecating,
 I wouldn't have cowered for fear of having my eyes scratched out.
 I wouldn't have cut my comfort off.
 I wouldn't have feigned needlessness.
 I would not have discredited every one of their compliments.
 It was your approval I wanted.
 Your congratulations.